I know you’re feeling lost and alone, confused and hurt, betrayed and abandoned.
I also know that you hate to hear these things, but it really will be okay. YOU will be okay. Not today (definitely not today), and probably not tomorrow or even next week, or hell even next month. But give it some time, allow yourself to breathe and heal and yes, even feel. You’ll go through all the stages – shock, denial, pain, guilt, anger, sadness, acceptance.
You will relapse. You will question this, that, and everything else. That’s just how these things go; that’s just how the grieving process goes. Some days, you’ll be sure – you’ll feel okay, maybe even good. Some days you’ll want to crawl into a hole, disappear from the world. Some days you’ll want to scream and curse, throw things and just be generally pissed off at the world.
That’s okay. That’s all okay.
Just remember this: nothing is concrete, nothing is permanent. There is and always will be time to turn things around, change your mind, go a different direction.
So breathe. And know that you are loved.