In an attempt to travel further down the path of self-discovery, I’ve decided to participate in Reverb 10, which is an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next.
December 12: Body integration
This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?
I don’t do yoga. I don’t exercise, I don’t work out. Basically, I’m not a physically active person… like at all.
But there was a moment. I had a moment this summer – and I don’t remember the day, time or hell, even the month, but there was a moment – in which I felt whole. We, a bunch of us, friends, family, just we were at the lake. Kids were yelling, people were jumping off the dock, animals were running amok. It was, basically, just another day at the lake.
In that moment, though, somewhere between the truck and the water, I paused for a second, a split second. I remember feeling the sun beating down on me, feeling it on every inch of my exposed skin. I could feel the heat mixed with the slight breeze of warm summer air. My thoughts were my feelings. That was the first time in a long time the two were one. And that was the last time in a long time the two were one.
December 13: Action
When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step?
This is something I’ve really been struggling with lately. What’s your next step?
Sometimes, it’s that easy. What’s your next step? Okay, now do it. What’s your next step? See it through.
But sometimes… it’s not that easy. Some things just aren’t black and white. Sometimes, it’s not as easy as “yes” or “no,” and sometimes that next step just isn’t crystal clear. (Like now.)
December 14: Appreciate
What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?
Family. FAMILY. My mom. My amazing brother and sister, and their amazing spouses. My nieces. HOLY CRAP my nieces.
Even extended family… aunts and uncles, cousins. Reconnecting.
I’ve been trying to be better at it, but it’s hard when you’re just not really a phone person. So I try in other ways – Facebook, email, text messages. It’s hard, too, when you’re forgetful like I am and happen to take after your mom, who is a bit of a homebody. But I try, because really, you can’t get much better than my family.