In an attempt to travel further down the path of self-discovery, I’ve decided to participate in Reverb 10, which is an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next.
December 18: Try
What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?
I want to try to be happy. I know that I took some pretty significant steps toward that in 2010 (new job, buying a house) but there was so much in 2010 that was about settling. At some point I stopped going for more and just sort of… got used to what I had. I never want to stop looking for more, stop yearning for more, stop wanting more again.
December 19: Healing
What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
Nothing, aside from a shot of penicillin in the ass (quite figuratively, actually – gotta love getting strep throat), healed me this year. I’ve touched on this a little here lately, but in terms of sickness/illness, 2010 was more a year for getting sick than for healing. In 2011, though, I would really like ME to heal me. Not suddenly, because I don’t think I’ll learn as much from it. But I want to heal, step by step, one little bit at a time until I’m whole, until I’m well again.
December 20: Beyond avoidance
What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
I should have stood up for myself, said the right things and done the right things, instead of running scared.
One can only hope I’ll do that in 2011.
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