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I have the remnants of a callus on my right hand. I couldn’t for the life of me tell you where it came from – I don’t “work with my hands,” as the saying goes, aside from typing. But I like it, I like the callus. It doesn’t hurt except for when I look at it, because it reminds me of my dad.

My dad had the hands of a working man. Callused and hard, the opposite of his heart, which was soft and warm. He was a squishy man, on the inside. So full of life and love. This callus reminds me to strive to be more like him.

I’m supposed to be out of town this weekend. Instead, I’m hiding out in my bed. I told family and friends I didn’t feel well, so I wouldn’t make it to my hometown. It’s the truth – I don’t feel well. But I’m afraid I wasn’t completely honest. And I’m afraid my depression is making a comeback, and I’m afraid I don’t know what to do about it.

I slept most of today and now it’s almost 10:00 pm – when I’m usually in bed, about to fall asleep – and I’m nowhere near sleepy. I still have a lot of that urge to lay here and stare at the ceiling (or the wall, when my back starts to hurt and I need to readjust), but I’m trying to push through.

It’s hard.

I’m pretty good at saying no. Not all the time, and not even a lot of the time, but when I really want to say no? I say no. Not a problem. I can say no to little things and to big things.

It’s saying “yes” that I need to work on. Because saying no comes so naturally sometimes, and the antisocial introvert in me can be so powerful sometimes. If I want to have friends I need to actually spend time outside my house and, well, make friends.

7 Comments

  1. tbf said:

    <3 i had a feeling. i love you.

    Friday, June 14, 2013
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  2. Charla said:

    Muchas gracias por los buenos deseos comepñaro, es una lástima que no me quede más tiempo para dedicarme a todos los temas que me gustan, en especial el software libre, pero necesito centrarme y enfocar mis esfuerzos en algo más tangible. Nos seguimos leyendo en Twitter!

    Sunday, November 6, 2016
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  3. http://www./ said:

    I've eaten here before a few years back, and my thoughts are exactly the same as yours. The price is fairly decent for the amount of food but it's not particularly amazing.

    Friday, December 23, 2016
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  4. http://www./ said:

    Se non ricordo male la rete di Hartmann e quella di Carry sono altra cosa rispetto alle 'ley-lines'. Queste ultime possono non avere andamenti rettilinei e quindi regolari cosa che invece le 2 reti sopracitate hanno se non modificate da campi elettromagnetici di diverso tipo, ma per riprendere poi il loro andamento normale . In più le reti di Hartmann hanno una maglia di 2,8metri circa rendendo improbabile la definizione di un nodo particolare all'interno di una città.fiore

    Friday, December 30, 2016
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  5. Es posible también el uso de la varita para dar un aspecto de relajación en el espectador, aunque quizás provoque risa y algo de desconcentración en algún momento, por lo que puede ser dañino…Pero por supuesto se puede usar para algún fin secundaraio a los citados en el articulo.

    Monday, January 9, 2017
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  6. http://www./ said:

    Hofe,CK7 was one block from popping a long run for a TD and slid to intentionally avoid another one.Gimmicky plays today had the potential for 2 more TD’.While some here are reproving GR for not using the weapons mentioned, I give him kudos for finding a way to use CK7′ ability to help the offense.Harbaugh and GR are developing another dimension to the offense by using CK.IMO, CK7 gives us another weapon and that’s good enough for me!Go 49ers!

    Thursday, January 19, 2017
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  7. http://www./ said:

    Scusate, sono un neofita in linux, come posso installare questo kernel?Potreste dirmi i comandi per compilarlo?Sto cerando di migrare da windows a ubuntu, sono stanco di vedere bsod Grazie

    Tuesday, February 28, 2017
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