Once upon a time, I swore up and down that I would never be a stay-at-home mom. Not because I saw shame in it, but because I didn’t think I’d be able to handle it. But now, staying at home with my son is all I want to do.
The difference between Then Kaci and Now Kaci is that Now Kaci has a better understanding about what being a SAHM is really about. It’s not about the continuous laundry or cleaning up the never-ending messes or constantly fighting your toddler’s urges to act like, well, a toddler. Those are things a SAHM does on a daily basis, but that’s not what it’s about.
It’s about providing for and taking care of your family in a completely different way, especially if you are used to bringing home a paycheck and providing medical insurance through your employer. It’s about being the support system, the backbone. This isn’t to say working moms don’t do these things. I’m a working mom – I do these things. But to stay at home with E would allow me to nurture his heart and soul like I believe only a mother can do.
Truth be told, I’m tired of wanting this so badly. So, recently, my husband and I decided to make some serious changes in our lives that will allow me to stay home and raise our children. We will be selling our house. I’ve notified my employer that I will not be returning to work after our baby is born in May. Our plan is to move back to my hometown (because, let’s be honest, I may not be a country girl but I am most definitely not a sagebrush girl) and buy a considerably cheaper house.
I couldn’t be more excited, especially because P is being so supportive of (and excited about!) these changes as well. He’s wanted to move to my hometown since I graduated from college (in 2008!) and I can’t even count the number of times he’s suggested it between then and now.
Onward and southward!