30-Day Letter Project: 29

I never meant to hurt him.

I never meant to hurt you, either, but the truth is… it shouldn’t have hurt you. It shouldn’t have hurt you the way it did. But. It did.

Because you weren’t truthful. You weren’t honest with me; hell, you weren’t honest with yourself. And you sure as shit aren’t honest with the people who care about and love you. You weren’t any of the things you were bitching at me for not being. You were hypocritical.

And now it’s come down to Facebook defriending and it’s petty. And I’m over it! It’s so ridiculous it’s funny.

I’m over it.

Photo: Deni

{Day 29: The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to}

30-Day Letter Project: 27 & 28

27

I mean, really? I’m supposed to remember someone from my past that I only knew for one day?

Not gonna happen, people.¬†Friendliest person? Dudes, I seriously don’t even know. I can barely remember the people I’ve known for years, so if I knew you for less than 24 hours? Forget it. I have a horrible memory.

28

I know I’m lucky, because I know a lot of people can’t honestly say they like their boss. Most people can’t honestly say they enjoy the company of their boss, and most people certainly can’t honestly say they would consider their boss a friend.

But I do. I can. I’m thankful for you, not just because you gave me this wonderful job that I am, each and every day, so grateful for… but because of who you are. You’re a really great person and you’ve already helped me through some difficult times, both professionally and personally. One time, during an after-work social event, you said something in passing about how I’m “like a daughter” to you, and it stuck with me. It almost sounds creepy, but that’s kind of how it is, isn’t it?

Photo: Stefan Klopp

{Day 27: The friendliest person you know for only one day}

{Day 28: Someone who changed your life}

30-Day Letter Project: 26

A promise is a promise, regardless of whether you actually mutter the words, “I promise.” I’ve told you this a thousand times (and I’m sure I’ll have to remind you of that at least a time or two in the future.)

We’ve both made promises to each other in the past that have ended up broken and shattered, in pieces on the floor.

But this one I intend to keep.

Photo: Kayla Davis

{Day 26: The last person you made a pinky promise to}

30-Day Letter Project: 25

I know you’re feeling lost and alone, confused and hurt, betrayed and abandoned.

I also know that you hate to hear these things, but it really will be okay. YOU will be okay. Not today (definitely not today), and probably not tomorrow or even next week, or hell even next month. But give it some time, allow yourself to breathe and heal and yes, even feel. You’ll go through all the stages – shock, denial, pain, guilt, anger, sadness, acceptance.

You will relapse. You will question this, that, and everything else. That’s just how these things go; that’s just how the grieving process goes. Some days, you’ll be sure – you’ll feel okay, maybe even good. Some days you’ll want to crawl into a hole, disappear from the world. Some days you’ll want to scream and curse, throw things and just be generally pissed off at the world.

That’s okay. That’s all okay.

Just remember this: nothing is concrete, nothing is permanent. There is and always will be time to turn things around, change your mind, go a different direction.

So breathe. And know that you are loved.

Photo: nina.vilasboas

{Day 25: The person you know that is going through the worst of times}