In an attempt to travel further down the path of self-discovery, I’ve decided to participate in Reverb 10, which is an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next.
December 23: New name
Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why?
I wouldn’t change a single thing about my name – first, last or middle.
December 24: Everything’s OK
What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?
There was one moment this fall, when my life started to fall apart bit by bit, when a coworker looked me straight in the eye and said, “You’ll be fine.”
No profound words, no deeper meaning. But this one little phrase, coming from her – a smart, truly SMART woman – meant the world.
December 25: Photo – a present to yourself
Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you.
This is who I am – an aunt to two beautiful twin girls. K and S are the lights of my life.
This is who I want to be – a positive role model for these girls.
I took this photo of my nieces and I in July 2010. It may not be the best photo of the girls (or myself), but you try getting a good self-portrait of you with two 2-and-a-half-year-olds! This photo melts my heart. This is who I am and who I want to be – and who I need to remember as I make life decisions.
December 26: Soul food
What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul?
Maybe it’s a good thing I delayed writing this, because I just got back from a trip to Leavenworth, and let me tell you – everything I ate there touched my soul. I had a delicious brat at Munchen Haus and amazing shrimp cooked in tequila at Katz Chop House, among lots and lots of other food (pretty sure I gained about 10 pounds in my two days there).
I think the brat, though – the whole experience, really – was the best. It was something I craved for days before I arrived in Leavenworth, and am still craving even now. YUM.
December 27: Ordinary joy
Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year?
I remember, after buying the house in March, going to Lowe’s to look for a washer and dryer. Nothing exciting, just a new laundry set. Though not cheap, I think of that as a pretty ordinary thing… and I was really, really happy doing it.
December 28: Achieve
What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.
The thing I most want to achieve in 2011 isn’t an actual act. The thing I most want to achieve is a feeling, an emotion, a state of mind. I want to achieve clarity, and peace of mind. And, really, that’s such an urgent thing that if I knew 10 things I could do, right now, to achieve that… well, I’d do it.
December 29: Defining moment
Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year.
This one is too personal, too painful to post here. But rest assured, there was a defining moment, a defining series of events, that drastically changed my life and is continuing to change my life to this exact moment. And no, it wasn’t (isn’t) pretty.